"Letters to River & Libby"

I miss you

This week has been incredibly hard without the both of you, I get to this place inside that things will never be the same again. My hope is that you are being taken care of and treated with respect. I always respected you and made sure I did my best to feed you healthy organic food and groom you often, although Libby would get dirty quicker than River. We had a routine, our daily walks, daily talks, bedtime was at 8:00 on the dot and if was busy you would go to your bed and wait for me to tuck you in.

You were my babies that never grew up, that always needed a Mommy to care for them and I feel terrible that I dropped the ball. I should of put you in the Petsmart Hotel, we even went to get a brochure but I messed up and left you in a place that you could escape.

Libby, I send you daily messages telling you I love you – I know you get them. I miss your kisses, pretend bites and the ”Pretty girl” trick you just learned. Who’s Momma’s pretty girl? Libby is!

My River- You were a sick little baby, it had only been 3 weeks that we had you and you needed to be hospitalized for a week in Irvine. Hope was dim for you but we visited you every other day and you made it. I miss you following me; sometimes I turn around and think you are going to be staring at me. You were very jealous, that’s why we nicknamed you “jelly”. I miss my Jellyfish that would wait for me to finish dinner then hop on my lap and fall asleep in my arms. I found a picture I took of you in Daddy’s arms and you were sleeping. You have the most cutest teddy bear face, I hope you are being treated like the little angel you are and not like a backyard dog.

I’m looking for you…..